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Thursday, January 06, 2005

``_____.*^D&G StOri^.#

::: D&G StOry :::

Our story starts on 2nd January 2001. It all began at the former building : Ping Yi Secondary location : Chai Chee Drive Class : 121 (Detailed e'nUff eH ?!~ lOlx)

::: Year 2001 :::

We were both "new-birdi". We sat together in class. I seem to clicked with her instantly, even though i thought she was "insane" at 1st, coz she seem to be talking to herself (wEird~) and it scares me. Days passed, i kept forgetting her name. (diff to pronounce laHx~) wel, from that day onwards, every morning before assembling on the parade ground, we would meet each other at one of the bench near the toilet. (eEeEEee ~ , stinK SIa) We never stop talking ( & i dunno y ...) it seem like we have loads of things to say, its as though we NEVER run out of topics to talk about.("talkative", i suppose ... ) Soon, we get to know almost of our classmates. Made loads of friends, in class and outside of class. And soon, afew of our classmates would also gether along with us during recess / taking our lunch outside together after school.

Our 1st kakis group during those days includes : mi (D.K) Geraldine (G.G), Adeline, Song Bee & Salena. We would also sometimes ask Joanna, Sock Huan and Lan Ying, (People/Friends from 122) to join us during our breaks.(Those were the good old days ...)

We didnt really like Lan Ying from the very start, maybe because she's taller than us and that she's much more prettier then I am. But things started to change, maybe 1st impression of that someone is always not right, Lan Ying turns out to be a very cute girl, with those round eyes and I just love it when ever she talks to me (up till now.), maybe its coz she has those "mainland" accent when she speaks english. It just turns me on !!!

Year 2002
Soon its another year - time really flies, lot of happy / exciting things has happened. For example : Going to the Zoo trip with the class, had great time. G.G and I even saw a camel : front - eating, behind, shitting! omg, it was the most disguesting sight we've ever seen! and I'm sure neither of us have forgotten it. (lOlx!!!~)

Shopping, spending money, shopping again, spending money again, food, clothes, boys!!!~ that was what we're into the whole year round !

That was also the year where G.G found the love of her life (Up til now ... oOooOow) and G.G was also chossen to be one of our class prefects !!! (also, up till now...)

Year 2003

Year 2003 is where all the trouble begins, people started to change, things were going the wrong lane, I couldnt keep up with what ever I am doing (such a failure), I started mixing around with people I shouldnt be with. I regreted what i did that year - i really wish i could turn things back, i wished i didnt listen to those rumours, - but i did.

I started to believe in "HER" i thought she was my true friend - a friend that never had, but i was wrong. (What makes me treat her like my best friend was that when i needed someone to be there for me on that day, she was there for me, and i thought, this is it")I even went with her, to where i shouldnt be to the park" that day (8th August 2003) i didnt deserve was i saw/feel. I hate myself, i hated myself for believing everyone at the scene. I hated myself for feeling guilty for "HIM1" for few months. I was so stupid, i should have slap him on the spot when i'm pushed, Y didnt i did that ???

It got me quite afew months before i recover from that heartbreak. When i got back on my feet again, i hated him so much.

It was months after that i got myself a new "HIM2" **, there were times i really wanted to give up, i didnt, coz, i couldnt bring myself to do it. And what makes me tell him "its over", itz when i couldnt tolarate it anymore and that i saw things i shouldnt. Up till now, i still couldnt believe what i saw ... And when everything is over, i started to cry every single night, thinking why couldnt i just kept quiet and said nothing, and why couldnt i just try to forget what i saw ??? I seem to regret everything and i seem to be blaming myself for everything that has happened. And i just dont know why (Life sUx!!!).

It was also the year which my me & G.G almost lost our friendship, just coz of some rumours "PPL" has been spreading, saying things about her to me, and saying things about me to her, which of coz, is never true at all. The "fellow" (bloody, donkey) who started that specific rumours is someone whom i thpought i could trust. I couldnt believe it. Eveything seem to be my fault, everyone is pratically lying to me. And i hate it ~ thinking about those days just makes me cry. I cried because why does everything happen, have to be about me ? and why?, why is it whenever i start to trust that particular someone, that someone is always the one who end up betraying me ? 2003 is the worst year that has ever happened to me. It was a year of many painful memories, lots of regrets, lots of compromises and lots of betrayals.

Year 2004

2004!!! this year!!! Things started to get better, I get to know more friends outside of school which really listens to what i have to say, and not forgetting G.G, we've been back together after knowing the truth (finalli, pHew!!!~)
But nothing is perfect, I tried means and ways to forget the past, but, its still haunting me sometimes.

Finally, i got it all behind me, and started to move on with my life, but i still end up being hurt, this time, it seem like its all made up. Another story of being sabotage, and the same old story of how it happened, how i cried, only this time, i put that behind, all within 2months.
I get on with my life well now, i got back on my feet, and wont ever use the word "trust" to just anyone. No matter how much rumours there were about me, as long as i know they're not true, i'd never let them get into me, anymore. I make friends thinking twice, and trust them thinking thrice, i never want to end up like the "old" me any more. I dont wanna think of commiting suicide over small things anymore. I just wanna be happy-go-lucky, and think nothing of the past anymore. Even though there's time i wished i could turn things back to where they 1st started.

boggy_waterhole@hotmail.com (>.<)

G.G ("!!!)

well, nw it's my turn to write my part of d stori eh, well, i went to Ping Yi Sec bcos obe my sis, wen i 1st went in, i tot to myslf, hw am i eva gonna survive?! No frens, except 4 a sis, budden so far away frm mi, she cnt b wit mi wen i'm in class...so i started off alone in d sch & i sat nxt to D.K hu thinks tt i'm insane & cnt rmbr nor pronounce my name...at least nw she gts it & so, D.K was d 1st person/fren i gt ta noe in Ping Yi & den d most obe thingys D.K stated it all out detail-ly le, so i dun hab ta write animore...den d stori continues...

2002...

is was d yr i found true luv!!! hehex...k lahx...erm...dis yr were quite alrite...both obe us were still as close as eva...tts wen we start our "D&G" craps & all tt ya see...lOlx...bt...friendship hav gd & bad terms too...tts wen thingys started 2 happened...

2003...

dis was d yr sum1 told mi, sayin tt D.K wana do sum thingy 2 mi...i trusted tt fellow & d relationship btween mi & D.K started 2 drift apart & tt all didn't change till...

2004...

at last...i found out d truth...it was all a lie...it was so s2pid obe mi 2 trust tt fellow...i mus b insane den...i shld hav known earlier...i hated myslf 4 doin thingys tt i shldn't...i hated myslf 4 sayin thingys i shldn't...i hated evrythingys abt myslf...luckily, i gt bac dis frenship & learnt a lesson of life. it's nw end obr yr, jus finish 4days3nite chalet, so sian, mos obe dem are slpin all d time, and it's like so mani ppl missin...tryin to loOk hapi all d time, so tired...lOlx, when we went back to sch 4 d graduation ceremony, we were still 4gether, i went to sch knowin D.K rite frm d veri 1st day, and i graduated wit her...rite on d veri last day at sch...

D&G's gonna strt a new life, loads obe thingys waitin for us...

^alrite, my stori was short bcos i hav bad memory ok...so i cnt b like D.K like tt, write till so mani thingys...bt tt doesn't mean i 4gt tt u owe me $$$ wen tok abt $$$ oh man...i'll oways rmbr...^

*moral obe stori nva trust ani1, confront tt fellow(even though it's difficult)so tt evrythingy will b sorted out... if tt fellow rids my stori, make sure u feel guilty...if nt, it means u totally hav no heart...I HATE YOU!!!

To my dearest D.K,

I mite have done thingys to u tt i shldn't have...bt, wat's done has been done, wat's done cnt b undone...i dunnoe if u've reali 4given mi or are u jus tryin to make mi hapi. U noe i'm nt gd wit words...bt wat i nid u to noe nw is tt, our sistaship nw reali means alot to mi...i luv u...and thank u 4 even though i'm nt der wit u wen u nid mi, u're oways bein der 4 mi...i noe jus a word thank u is nt enuff...bt i'll try my best to make u hapi...

Yours Sincerely

6:30 PM Z